o we had to interpret th bible form teh underside (form teh veiw of the poor) an dthis was some ting I played around with and wrote to figure out the parable of the widowes mite. and no I have not spell checked it sorry. just think of it as code. :)
The widow's lost coin
SO the widow looses her coin. When you loose soemthing important you your mind starts to take over with what if, what if that happens and the possiblities in life lessen. And you start to question yourself.
What is the widow thinking: what will I do if I don't have that money?,
When will I get more.. How will I survive, I don't have a plan B.
I don't have means of getting more.
Maybe she is beating herself up for loosing the coin.
How could I be so careless, I can't be trusted. Who can turnhelp me, my husband is dead, I have no job.
she feels alone and hopeless but she have no other choice but to keep looking for the lost valuble.
Widow' thoughts: it's got to be here somewhere... I can't give up I must keep looking for it... it has to be here some where, to give up is not an option.
When it is found, she will rejioce. It is not jsut a coin found but it changes how she see's things. It changes her perspective. This is not a thing she can do with out, or frivilously throw away, it's value to her is to great and pivital to her existance. So when it is found the relief not only that it is found and she can use it to live on as it is crucial. But maybe just maybe she can forgive herself for lossing it. Maybe she can take back the things she said about herself in her head of being irresponsible and careless. Maybe she is gonna make it and the world is not crashing down on her. This changes her perspective. Her view is radically diffrent there is hope on the horizon now.
Just as Christ sometimes feels alone in His efforts to search for his lost. His own body tries to share His desire for the nations and his lost people, but you have to wonder if it is just a drop in the bucket compared to the iintesity he feels for his lost sheep. He is devoted to this task. If He doesn't do it who will. These lost are so presious,there is no option of giving up and axcepting defeat. HE will search...
And when it is found
When it is found the rejoicing hat will take place. you know when you have lost someting and you kinda hold your breath hoping you didn't really loose it. Hopeing that it is a dream and you will awae to a nicer more pleasent reality. Or do we hold our breath to not accpt defeat. Like we a refreezing time, and frentically looking for this truly missed item. But when it is found, think back for a sencond at something you have lost... Remember that time when you found it you uncounsicely let your breath out anyour muscles relaze and then this peace and joy slowly filll your body like it is climbing up from your toes to your heart. And at that moment or even that second you can do anything. Some how you are sure you could climb everest. ( thankfully this momentary insanity passes). But the joy is unexainale. The world is right, life is good and there is not a cloud int eh sky.
For just as much as Chirst yearns to see HIs little creations (from His veiw) These helpless little things come back to Him the one who loves them and protects them and misses them. And His angels are at His beckon call. And they desire to see HIs hearts desires fullfiled. They are servants to the core. So to see this happen a lost sheep come home is an amazing day. A day that they long for not every once and a while but daily. Why because their job is to have his conerns and tend to Him. So this is a victory and satifaction maybe. A job well done. and To see Chirst's heart's dream fullfilled. Sometimes we yearn harded for other peoples dreams than we do our own. So again this description doesnt do it justice, but the rejoicing in heaven that goes on when someone returns to their maker is the kid of rejoicing you feel in your toes. it takes over. The angles will rejoice on behalf of their King.
those are my thoughts...
Jul 31, 2007
BE LOVED
Well, I have yet to make it to the internet but I am using some ones computer to type and put down some thoughts. This is an attempt to keep people up to date on things here. I am well, except for a few extra visits to the Bathroom as of late. I ate a hamburgure yesterday ( a huge treat here) and my body seems to not know what to do with that. but this too will pass. hheee hee. Okay enough of that buisness.
So lets see what I can fill you in on from halfway around the world. Well I went on another outreach it was just a one nighter. Drive there set up, walk around and invite people to come see the film and hear about Jesus, show the film, we prayed while the film was going (the jesus film in their mother tounge which was Macuwa this time). And then they preach for a bit. The head guy that night was joking around about making my leader preach, she was unprepared and not wanting to at all. Which I didn't blame her, being asked moments before doesn't give you much time to think. And as I am standing there thinking, man that sucks for her, but if it was me what would I say. Well at that moment the guy points to me and says- you come here. There was no persuading him he was insistant, and so I thought, he won't let up and we are going to make a sceane so I went AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! they handed me the mic and stared at me. no prompting or anything. So I asked can I speak in English? He said yeah. That was all my instruction.
So I started to tell of when I was a little girl. My mother and I were talking and she was telling me about God. I had many questions like where did the trees come from and where did the earth come from, who made them, and who made people. She said God did. And then she went on to tell me how God had one son, and He loved His son so much. It was His only child. And then she told me about sins, and how we all do things wrong and how that makes us feel bad. She asked me if I wanted to be forgiven of my sins, to get rid of them. I said yeah, how can I do that. She told me that Jesus can take them away and I dont' have to feel bad anymore about them. I thought can get rid of them, I can be forgiven. I said okay I want that. And I told the poeple how God's son was killed, He was murdered. But He did nothing worng. But He was mudered so he could forgive me of my sins. That He loved me. He loved me so much that He died for me. Then went on to say how He died for you (the poeple of the village, and you too at home). The people barely moved during most of this. I said the world likes to tell us lies that we are not important an we are not specail or we are not loved. But that is not true because, God loved us so much that He gave His one son. His one son and He was killed. But He chose to do this becasue He loves us. He loves you. So don't let the world tell you that you are not specail or not loved, you are so loved.
And that is all I can remember about my little sermon in the village. The guy translated into portugese and then another person in to Macuwa. So keeping a train of thought was so hard, cause you had to pause after every few words. But I went on to ask if any of these people wanted to meet Jesus tonight. He wanted to meet them. He wanted to talk to them, to have a realtioship. I think about 10 people or more raised their hands to recive Christ. And then we prayed. The main guy spoke some more and invited them to the Lord in a more swave way. So we got to pray over them. It was a cool eperience. And at the time I was nervouse to speak but quickly chilled out and felt the need to let them know they are so loved. Such a need to let them really know they are loved and were not insignifigant or alone. I told them, that God sees them, He sees them when they get up He sees them when they go to sleep He sees them during the day. And He is aiting to talk to them. He can't wait to talk to them actually.
One more cool thing, while the movie was going we were praying and just asking the Holy Spirit to come. I was asking please come and fill us again. While this was happening and I went over to a freind and was told she had a a really bad headache. So we layed hands on her and prayed for her. I felt my hand become warm and we kept praying. And after a bit asked how was it? She said better. I was so excited to hear that. And earlier we prayed over a lady in the village who said she was sick and so we laid hands on her and prayed for her and my hand was warm again (a very suttle thing). But after we asked how do you feel and you could see she felt better. It was an exciting night.
The moon was out and full, it lit up the sky and filled everything with a blue light. It was a great privillage. Is it all easy here, no there were people who thought we were nuts, and laughed, people who walked away, people who were synical. But as I was reminded by some one yesterday, wheather you see blind eyes open or a soul come to meet there maker. Both are mericals. Mericals can come and go but a soul who meets there maker is a thing of awe. So I am excited about those who wanted to talk with their maker.
Well, I have yet to make it to the internet but I am using some ones computer to type and put down some thoughts. This is an attempt to keep people up to date on things here. I am well, except for a few extra visits to the Bathroom as of late. I ate a hamburgure yesterday ( a huge treat here) and my body seems to not know what to do with that. but this too will pass. hheee hee. Okay enough of that buisness.
So lets see what I can fill you in on from halfway around the world. Well I went on another outreach it was just a one nighter. Drive there set up, walk around and invite people to come see the film and hear about Jesus, show the film, we prayed while the film was going (the jesus film in their mother tounge which was Macuwa this time). And then they preach for a bit. The head guy that night was joking around about making my leader preach, she was unprepared and not wanting to at all. Which I didn't blame her, being asked moments before doesn't give you much time to think. And as I am standing there thinking, man that sucks for her, but if it was me what would I say. Well at that moment the guy points to me and says- you come here. There was no persuading him he was insistant, and so I thought, he won't let up and we are going to make a sceane so I went AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! they handed me the mic and stared at me. no prompting or anything. So I asked can I speak in English? He said yeah. That was all my instruction.
So I started to tell of when I was a little girl. My mother and I were talking and she was telling me about God. I had many questions like where did the trees come from and where did the earth come from, who made them, and who made people. She said God did. And then she went on to tell me how God had one son, and He loved His son so much. It was His only child. And then she told me about sins, and how we all do things wrong and how that makes us feel bad. She asked me if I wanted to be forgiven of my sins, to get rid of them. I said yeah, how can I do that. She told me that Jesus can take them away and I dont' have to feel bad anymore about them. I thought can get rid of them, I can be forgiven. I said okay I want that. And I told the poeple how God's son was killed, He was murdered. But He did nothing worng. But He was mudered so he could forgive me of my sins. That He loved me. He loved me so much that He died for me. Then went on to say how He died for you (the poeple of the village, and you too at home). The people barely moved during most of this. I said the world likes to tell us lies that we are not important an we are not specail or we are not loved. But that is not true because, God loved us so much that He gave His one son. His one son and He was killed. But He chose to do this becasue He loves us. He loves you. So don't let the world tell you that you are not specail or not loved, you are so loved.
And that is all I can remember about my little sermon in the village. The guy translated into portugese and then another person in to Macuwa. So keeping a train of thought was so hard, cause you had to pause after every few words. But I went on to ask if any of these people wanted to meet Jesus tonight. He wanted to meet them. He wanted to talk to them, to have a realtioship. I think about 10 people or more raised their hands to recive Christ. And then we prayed. The main guy spoke some more and invited them to the Lord in a more swave way. So we got to pray over them. It was a cool eperience. And at the time I was nervouse to speak but quickly chilled out and felt the need to let them know they are so loved. Such a need to let them really know they are loved and were not insignifigant or alone. I told them, that God sees them, He sees them when they get up He sees them when they go to sleep He sees them during the day. And He is aiting to talk to them. He can't wait to talk to them actually.
One more cool thing, while the movie was going we were praying and just asking the Holy Spirit to come. I was asking please come and fill us again. While this was happening and I went over to a freind and was told she had a a really bad headache. So we layed hands on her and prayed for her. I felt my hand become warm and we kept praying. And after a bit asked how was it? She said better. I was so excited to hear that. And earlier we prayed over a lady in the village who said she was sick and so we laid hands on her and prayed for her and my hand was warm again (a very suttle thing). But after we asked how do you feel and you could see she felt better. It was an exciting night.
The moon was out and full, it lit up the sky and filled everything with a blue light. It was a great privillage. Is it all easy here, no there were people who thought we were nuts, and laughed, people who walked away, people who were synical. But as I was reminded by some one yesterday, wheather you see blind eyes open or a soul come to meet there maker. Both are mericals. Mericals can come and go but a soul who meets there maker is a thing of awe. So I am excited about those who wanted to talk with their maker.
BELOVED
How are you? I am good. Gosh it has been a about 2 weeks, huh? Well I went on outreach for a weekend to a Micondi Village. It was a hard weekend, but the Lord taught me so much. I have been places that I was the one that stood out and looked difrent but this was honestly as though I was "The Alien". So much so, that as I was sitting next to a little village boy while some in my group were praying. and before you know it I am surrounded by village kids and I was starting to get smothered so I started to get up. As I did - let me paint the picture (do you remember the movie toy story when one of the charcters is at the aracde and the little green aliens, and all in unicion say "ooooooohhhhhhh") well in unicon there was a oooooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh from the children, as if to say, the white person moved wow. I thought at that very moment I am the aline here, weird!!!! It is a wierd moment when you relize you are a true alein and the mother ship has just moved. YIkes. okay enough goofyness.
Other things about the weekend.... Well I definatly felt and saw witch cratch and it's effects. I was not the leader of this group but flet at times like it. I was trying to rally my group (the troups) to praising the Lord and praying they all said they coulnd think of one song to sing. that is crazy out a group of 8,some one shoudl hav now at least one praise song, that confirmed more in me that we were being distracted and lulled to sleep byt he spirits of the village. You could feel the oppresion in this village, actually both villages we went to. one wouldn't let us show the Jesus film. And the second village I wondered for a minuet if they were going to mob us. but we started to pray and I could feel a change. Bt the first village even my own thoughts were crazy like "who are we to bring them a white God. does He have any relevence to them. Is he just a man that we are all worked up about." And the huge lesson i learned is that the influence of evil sounded just like my own thoughts. and therefore I entertained them. IF you know that you are being atcked you won't put up with it or you reconize a diffrent voice and you shut it down. But when it is your own thoughts I think of it as my logic and ponder on them. But this showed me that Satan can make it sound like our own thoughts but it is not us, he is enfluencing. He can enfulence our emotions and mood. But with all this I had to consciencely keep choosing to not belive these these thoughts and had to CHOOSE to say outloud "no you are not crazy for beliveing in christ". And stating "I belive in Christ and to proclaim to the governing spirits that I am Christ's." (Eph.6:12-13) And had to choose to praise him.
It was very hard also becasue after you have thoughts like that I wasted no time in condeming myself in saying how could you think that way and you call yourself a christain. (1john 3:20-21) and then thought I can't tell anyone about this they will think I am not a strong beliver or a good chrisitan. WEll that is a bunch of BS. Yes I used that expression because that is what it is. Satan wants us to hide our faults or sins. and there we start to protect them, as little secrets. and they start to have a hold on us like blackmail would, it is poison. The bible says to bring things in to the light. so I also tell this so maybe it is a way to help others, and I declaire that I don't care what you think when you read all that beacue the issue or offense was between me and God anyways. and not between me and man. I could write so much more on what I learned on outreach. yikes. a few days in a place like that can teach you so much. but honestly God can teach you so much whereever you are if you are open to hearing his voice and leading. I am learing that and tring to walk in that as week speak. Shoudl't I being doing that all the time, walking in His strength, yeah but I stumble and start over. and sometimes when you start over it feels like the first time you have ever tried, all over again.
If you are wondering what I am talking about and thinking man they will let anyone have a blog these days to ramble sorry, and just quit reading cause I will contiune to ramble about what God is teaching me.
So when we got back we always hear of great testimonies from the outhreaches. For example, how the other group prayed over the witch doctor and he got his catoracts healed and became radially saved. Well we came back pretty much feeling beat up. But as we found out... Macondi is a peopel group that is unreached.Iris ministries has been really going after the Macuwa, and just recently started work on the Macondi. and they are just starting to reachout to them. but they have very hard hearts and they are people who still eat eachother. YUP :) Still canibals, and Hiedi I belive has been stoned by them. I found out these things after I got back and not before, thankfully. But Hiedi said that "they won't eat a white person cause they wouldn't want to go to jail and if they eat you some body would notice you were gone and they would get in trouble" and then she proceeded to giggle about the whole thing. You just gotta laugh some times about how the world is still is in so many places.
Oh another thing we can praise Adoni for is when we were driving to the village which took about 8 hours in a flat bed on VERY bumpy roads, I am talkin pot holes up to y knees sometimes. And 5 hours on the way back. Like I said you jsut gotts laughabotu it sometimes. DAD you would love it they drive like they are in a race (the indi 500). K so the driver says oh "this is a park". We say "what kind of park". He says "you know a park with lions and elephants". Note we had already seen a baboon on the road while driving. And I thougth well at least we are in a car and I am sure when we get to the village we will have driven through and be out of the park. AHH, I was wrong. We aparently stayed in the park. We slept in a fenced in little place (bammboo fence, that won't keep any of those animals out). But I had peace and felt safe with the Lord. And The lord did keep us safe. THANK YOU LORD. SO if you think ah, she is fine i dont' need to pray, let me say this about ALL missionaries you NEVER KNOW WHAT THEY ARE FACING. SO please keep them in your prayers.
What can I say- the Lord is mighty and good. the past two days I have heard stories of pastors here that have prayed and watched the Lord raise people from the dead. So as we sang this moring in worship "death has lost it's sting and sin has lost it's shame" has so much more relavence to me now. The song is Marvelous light- it's s good one.
One more quick thing I am reading a book called Rees Howells - Intercessor. a required reading for me here , but it is kicking my butt and really showing me what it is to yeild to the lord. To let the Holy Spirit lead us. I hope you will read it your selves.
I have been wrestlying with weather to go on the 2 week outreach. and just feeling like I can't do it, it is too much!!!! But the lord has been showing me you can do it I will take care of you we can get through this. and changing my heart. And also reminding me of Jonha and how we all have callings and it is better to fullfill what the Lord is asking you to do. and if you don't who will. So I am going to the bush bush bush ( translation - way out in the middle of no where, to villages that have never seend white people.) for 2 weeks of evangilisim. Every single prayer you can offer will be used belive me. I am stepping out side of my strength (which is very low here). and walking with nothing else but Gods strength. I honestly can't say I have seen that lived out very often but maybe by one person in my life. I know on paper that sounds lovely and we all are thinking we should be walking in the Lord's strength and no t in our own all te time. but do we really or do we have other options set up and ways out.but this makes me nosous of how big this feels, but have to remind myself He who is in me is greater than he who is in the world. well I must go. -b
How are you? I am good. Gosh it has been a about 2 weeks, huh? Well I went on outreach for a weekend to a Micondi Village. It was a hard weekend, but the Lord taught me so much. I have been places that I was the one that stood out and looked difrent but this was honestly as though I was "The Alien". So much so, that as I was sitting next to a little village boy while some in my group were praying. and before you know it I am surrounded by village kids and I was starting to get smothered so I started to get up. As I did - let me paint the picture (do you remember the movie toy story when one of the charcters is at the aracde and the little green aliens, and all in unicion say "ooooooohhhhhhh") well in unicon there was a oooooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh from the children, as if to say, the white person moved wow. I thought at that very moment I am the aline here, weird!!!! It is a wierd moment when you relize you are a true alein and the mother ship has just moved. YIkes. okay enough goofyness.
Other things about the weekend.... Well I definatly felt and saw witch cratch and it's effects. I was not the leader of this group but flet at times like it. I was trying to rally my group (the troups) to praising the Lord and praying they all said they coulnd think of one song to sing. that is crazy out a group of 8,some one shoudl hav now at least one praise song, that confirmed more in me that we were being distracted and lulled to sleep byt he spirits of the village. You could feel the oppresion in this village, actually both villages we went to. one wouldn't let us show the Jesus film. And the second village I wondered for a minuet if they were going to mob us. but we started to pray and I could feel a change. Bt the first village even my own thoughts were crazy like "who are we to bring them a white God. does He have any relevence to them. Is he just a man that we are all worked up about." And the huge lesson i learned is that the influence of evil sounded just like my own thoughts. and therefore I entertained them. IF you know that you are being atcked you won't put up with it or you reconize a diffrent voice and you shut it down. But when it is your own thoughts I think of it as my logic and ponder on them. But this showed me that Satan can make it sound like our own thoughts but it is not us, he is enfluencing. He can enfulence our emotions and mood. But with all this I had to consciencely keep choosing to not belive these these thoughts and had to CHOOSE to say outloud "no you are not crazy for beliveing in christ". And stating "I belive in Christ and to proclaim to the governing spirits that I am Christ's." (Eph.6:12-13) And had to choose to praise him.
It was very hard also becasue after you have thoughts like that I wasted no time in condeming myself in saying how could you think that way and you call yourself a christain. (1john 3:20-21) and then thought I can't tell anyone about this they will think I am not a strong beliver or a good chrisitan. WEll that is a bunch of BS. Yes I used that expression because that is what it is. Satan wants us to hide our faults or sins. and there we start to protect them, as little secrets. and they start to have a hold on us like blackmail would, it is poison. The bible says to bring things in to the light. so I also tell this so maybe it is a way to help others, and I declaire that I don't care what you think when you read all that beacue the issue or offense was between me and God anyways. and not between me and man. I could write so much more on what I learned on outreach. yikes. a few days in a place like that can teach you so much. but honestly God can teach you so much whereever you are if you are open to hearing his voice and leading. I am learing that and tring to walk in that as week speak. Shoudl't I being doing that all the time, walking in His strength, yeah but I stumble and start over. and sometimes when you start over it feels like the first time you have ever tried, all over again.
If you are wondering what I am talking about and thinking man they will let anyone have a blog these days to ramble sorry, and just quit reading cause I will contiune to ramble about what God is teaching me.
So when we got back we always hear of great testimonies from the outhreaches. For example, how the other group prayed over the witch doctor and he got his catoracts healed and became radially saved. Well we came back pretty much feeling beat up. But as we found out... Macondi is a peopel group that is unreached.Iris ministries has been really going after the Macuwa, and just recently started work on the Macondi. and they are just starting to reachout to them. but they have very hard hearts and they are people who still eat eachother. YUP :) Still canibals, and Hiedi I belive has been stoned by them. I found out these things after I got back and not before, thankfully. But Hiedi said that "they won't eat a white person cause they wouldn't want to go to jail and if they eat you some body would notice you were gone and they would get in trouble" and then she proceeded to giggle about the whole thing. You just gotta laugh some times about how the world is still is in so many places.
Oh another thing we can praise Adoni for is when we were driving to the village which took about 8 hours in a flat bed on VERY bumpy roads, I am talkin pot holes up to y knees sometimes. And 5 hours on the way back. Like I said you jsut gotts laughabotu it sometimes. DAD you would love it they drive like they are in a race (the indi 500). K so the driver says oh "this is a park". We say "what kind of park". He says "you know a park with lions and elephants". Note we had already seen a baboon on the road while driving. And I thougth well at least we are in a car and I am sure when we get to the village we will have driven through and be out of the park. AHH, I was wrong. We aparently stayed in the park. We slept in a fenced in little place (bammboo fence, that won't keep any of those animals out). But I had peace and felt safe with the Lord. And The lord did keep us safe. THANK YOU LORD. SO if you think ah, she is fine i dont' need to pray, let me say this about ALL missionaries you NEVER KNOW WHAT THEY ARE FACING. SO please keep them in your prayers.
What can I say- the Lord is mighty and good. the past two days I have heard stories of pastors here that have prayed and watched the Lord raise people from the dead. So as we sang this moring in worship "death has lost it's sting and sin has lost it's shame" has so much more relavence to me now. The song is Marvelous light- it's s good one.
One more quick thing I am reading a book called Rees Howells - Intercessor. a required reading for me here , but it is kicking my butt and really showing me what it is to yeild to the lord. To let the Holy Spirit lead us. I hope you will read it your selves.
I have been wrestlying with weather to go on the 2 week outreach. and just feeling like I can't do it, it is too much!!!! But the lord has been showing me you can do it I will take care of you we can get through this. and changing my heart. And also reminding me of Jonha and how we all have callings and it is better to fullfill what the Lord is asking you to do. and if you don't who will. So I am going to the bush bush bush ( translation - way out in the middle of no where, to villages that have never seend white people.) for 2 weeks of evangilisim. Every single prayer you can offer will be used belive me. I am stepping out side of my strength (which is very low here). and walking with nothing else but Gods strength. I honestly can't say I have seen that lived out very often but maybe by one person in my life. I know on paper that sounds lovely and we all are thinking we should be walking in the Lord's strength and no t in our own all te time. but do we really or do we have other options set up and ways out.but this makes me nosous of how big this feels, but have to remind myself He who is in me is greater than he who is in the world. well I must go. -b
Jul 17, 2007
Hello again,
SO a got stuck in teh rain last night aas we walked home for a dinne in teh village at a freind house. they killed the chickens and cooked them adn of course rice. it was good adn a fun experience. To spent some time seeing there life and geting to joke around with our freind we have made. His name is Moosa. I wish i could send pics but the internet is pretty slow here. So you will have to see him latter. But wanted to update that I am alive and hanging in there.
I am definatly feeling the need for endurance now. it is getting to that point in the time frame where it is getting tough. starting to miss little things of home.
oh yeah if you can pray for the bed bugs to DIE DIE DIE! coudl you read the aggresion. I am treating my stuff as we speak. what eles. what eles. oh yeah i fyou all want to call me you can. Emily or Mark have the phone number. and you woudl be best to get a phone card off the internet like www.noblecom.com cause for me to call is ( i did a rough estime) a $1 a minuet. so you can imagine that I can't talk long. and if you get a pohone card I think you can get it for 20 cents a minuet. thought I would let you all know that.
Well I think I am going on an outreach this weekend. So this should be fun -say a prayer for that.
AND AGAIN I AM SORRY FOR THE REALLY BAD TYPIGN AND SPELLING. talk to you soon. -B
SO a got stuck in teh rain last night aas we walked home for a dinne in teh village at a freind house. they killed the chickens and cooked them adn of course rice. it was good adn a fun experience. To spent some time seeing there life and geting to joke around with our freind we have made. His name is Moosa. I wish i could send pics but the internet is pretty slow here. So you will have to see him latter. But wanted to update that I am alive and hanging in there.
I am definatly feeling the need for endurance now. it is getting to that point in the time frame where it is getting tough. starting to miss little things of home.
oh yeah if you can pray for the bed bugs to DIE DIE DIE! coudl you read the aggresion. I am treating my stuff as we speak. what eles. what eles. oh yeah i fyou all want to call me you can. Emily or Mark have the phone number. and you woudl be best to get a phone card off the internet like www.noblecom.com cause for me to call is ( i did a rough estime) a $1 a minuet. so you can imagine that I can't talk long. and if you get a pohone card I think you can get it for 20 cents a minuet. thought I would let you all know that.
Well I think I am going on an outreach this weekend. So this should be fun -say a prayer for that.
AND AGAIN I AM SORRY FOR THE REALLY BAD TYPIGN AND SPELLING. talk to you soon. -B
Jul 8, 2007
SO I went into the village again and had a wonderful time embarrassing myself. we try to speak the language but they laugh weather you say it right or not. but the women this time were fun and wanted to talkto us but we couldn't understand. but it was still no nice i wish I could communicate and I hope to go back adn mayeb become freinds with them.
But I just remembered, i had a great conversation with some guys and I just started speaking in spanish and hopeing that the words were the same in portugese. BUt thinking in spanish as to form sentances. And it was wonderful they totally understood me. I was so proud. SO PROUD. It was a moment I really needed to explain some thing and for them to understand why and they did. PRAISE TEH LORD. he hehehehe okay just wanted to share my sucess.
But I just remembered, i had a great conversation with some guys and I just started speaking in spanish and hopeing that the words were the same in portugese. BUt thinking in spanish as to form sentances. And it was wonderful they totally understood me. I was so proud. SO PROUD. It was a moment I really needed to explain some thing and for them to understand why and they did. PRAISE TEH LORD. he hehehehe okay just wanted to share my sucess.
The wedding... well it was cool to see to peopel so in love wioth God and inlove with eachother they are amazing people. and a great wedding. peopel showed up not the whole town but still a good crowd. and it was kinda a crazy wedding but cool. Iwas taling teh photos all day and so my experience is throught the view finder of my cammera. but at teh end of the day we got some amazing shots. AMAZING! let me just say. so I am glad to see it finished. I wish i had more to say on the matter. maybe you can pray for me to liven up and for my passion. Things are good and life is moving along, but it feels like a desert. But I am still learing, learing to love when it is difficult, learning to have paceintce, and learning what or how God see me. I think we have a distored idea of how much he loves us. And I have trouble beliving it. but I was listening to this song an sermon and teh guy was saying He loves you because He loves you because he loves you because He loves you because he loves you, because he Loves you, because he loves you. He loves you because He loves you because he loves you because He loves you because he loves you, because he Loves you, because he loves you. Can we really understand that.
How is it going, here in Pemba?
First off I am tring to remember what I have shared and have not. or What I have writen in emails so if I repeat myself pease pardon me. pardon- forgive. Desculpa- I am sorry in Portugese.
I don't feel like I mesh and my pacientce is short somedays. But I know I am being stretched, and God is trying to teach me through this. But There is a deffinate diffrence in me and my reaction to the culture and the people here compaired to other places I have been. Which is good and bad. Good- because I see how excited my heart gets in terms of Latin America / Europe (for them to come to know the Lord). Bad- in the sence that The Lord calls us to take care of all and care for His sheep. And in this case by sheep I mean the people of this earth He has created and wants to see them not decived and come to kow Him and His salvation. (Read it Ezeikle 34- I know it is talking about Isreal but God was using it to speak to me in the here and now). So when I am in the village I see the people with Love and am ready to move in and work with them. But the poeple and kids that come in from the village are not on their best behavior away form their parents etc. But I know that the problem is with me and things that God is scraping off of me or showing me things in me that need to change.
I have to keep in mind that this culture is so diffrent they don't have Judeo Chirstian belifes or ethics. They don't know the Ten Commandments. As Heidi was speaking she was explaining they have grown up with the mentality or philosphy of -- "A goat tied to a post can have as much grass as it reach." So if it is in the goats reach then they are gonna eat it. And that seems to be how things go here, things can easily disipear easily. There are many opportunist. If I can get my hands on it then i can have it. Which is so diffrent to what Westerners have engrained in them from the begining. We act out of a sence of indiviualisim and they opperate in a community. And there is not a great attacment to things here. Why would you be attched whenyou don't have much and if a "goat can grase" things are temporary. That is a good thing to not be attched to earthly things but also that leads to the diffrences of how we treat things. As Westerners we are taught most of the time to take care of things so they last. But as I see things here, things are temporary so the care is not put in to perserving things at the same level. These things may seem trivial but really are some of our foudnations of how we live life and relate. I feel like I am in a PHD prgram of anthropoloy or socialogy. Lots to process!!! This blog is slowly becoming a place to process and journal. I am don't know if that is good or not. It may get embarassing for me since I don't opperate with that many filters. Hopefully I will not stick my foot in my mouth. But please grant me grace and know that life is a process.
I am slowly making some mozambquie friends. You may seem shocked but - keep in mind I have class and some other things on the schedulal which eat up time. And there are people that I talk with and try and form relationships daily but it feels like there is an adgenda on both sides. They may want to get something from me, or are trying to marry me or I am trying to learn portugese. It is just forced. So I have been helping with the horses here and the guy that works with them speaks fairly good english, so we chat. It seems like we are becoming freinds, and I am excited. Frindship can't be forced ya know, But He seems chill/ cool. HIs name is Edu. He likes to ask me questions. Todays was, Do I have a specail freind? (boyfreind or husband). and I say, No. Then as most here, He will continue to say, Why? And I follow with, I don't know. Today He said, You need to ask God why. - It cracks me up, and frustraights me all in the same breath. But I geuss I share that to say I hope I can have a true mozambquiecan freind here. I would love to have more, so we shall see. But my language is fair I can get around and get thigns done but to have a indepth conversation is a whole other level of portugese. And my Macuwa- is pitifal, bu tthey crack up when a white person speaks their language. Wheather i say it right or not it is sofunny to them.
If this sounds like complaining. please don't take it that way I am just telling things going on here, life is full of things to ponder. But it is not complaining. I am just trying to share my experinces here. I am not great at making things sound fluffy and wonderful or sugar coating. But if you know me than you should know that about me.
The people here int eh school are passionate for the Lord and I am learning and being spurred on by their example. And just how they approch God diffrently. They dont' put Him in a box. Or at least we are being challenged to take HIm out of that box. So there are times I have had these theories or thoughts from the Lord or thoughts about the Lord that help me understand Him. And some of the speakers here have hit on these thoughts and theiories exact on the dot. It is so nice to have conformation in those things and encourages me to walk in those ideas in confidence in the future. To know others have had these ideas or God has spoken to them about the same thing. And to walk in freedom in the Lord. And to not let satan have his thumb on me or oppress me or tell me lies. Christ has already faught that battle. We woud be handing abck land that has already been faught for and won, And handing it to the enemy free of charge. (it rediculaous)
Or even to let my own heart condem me. And that that is not acceptabel either. I am learning that God speaks to me in many ways and I seem to brush it off as though I don't know what I am talking about. As thought - I couldn't have understanding on this asue who am I. When really I am saying my weekness or lacking is prohibity God form working. That is redicualous. My weekness is not opstical for Him. But really God is speaking to me. And He speaks to us in the ways He knows we will unerstand He translates it to our heart lanuage and that maybe is why it is hard for me to see if it is me or Him, cause He speaks so well to my heart that I can't recognize it as forgien. But those times I do recognze it as something foreigen I always give him credit. (condeming heart 1 John3:19-22) I hope that makes sence those are some things I am pondering on or realizing things I belive that I didn't realize, and some of them are lies. I thank the Lord that He doesn't give up on us. I am a slow mover sometimes.
Does that make sence. I just assumed having the mind of an artist that I was wierd but I always assumed I am wrong in my thoughts but in learning from speakers and conversations with people in the day to day, I am learing tons of how God is speaking to me I just didn't give him enough credit that He was that good at communication. But at the same time how ammazing is the Lord that He communicates on such a great level, adn intamae level.
I am learning of new speakers and musiians. I am excited about some of the music, it speaks the cries of the heart to God. You can look up and get some of it if you like. I am LOVE music so I have to pass along the good things I have found. You may have heard of some of them but since there is a range of people reading this I will put a mix, and we can all move on from Sandy patty, eh. -Watchmen for the nations. -Jason Upton -Enter the Worship Circle -100 portraits -Water Deep, -Healing Gate ministry, -Hillsong -Brian Johnson - Kelly Warren -Johnathan Helser -JoAnn Mc Fatter - IHOP worship team -Brenton Brown -Georgian Bannoff ?
sites you can check out of other music - Morning star ( a church n N.C) and IHOP- Internation House of Prayer some cool stuff.
So this school is in a diffrent arena of chirstianity. I guess you classify it as Charasmatic. And therefore i am learning new sides of God. Being that I was raised in the evagelical prodstant side that didn't really speak much about the Holy Spirit. I am enjoying learning, and seeing God in a new light and watching HIm opperate out of the box I put HIm in. He is a great God. Man !!!
I am going to an outreach tonight. Where we go to a village and show the Jesus film, and speak and evangelize. It should be cool. And this band is here visiting that is amazing. Their name is Georgian Bannoff. I don't know how to spell it. I think they are partly from Belgum. They rock, like let's have a hoe down,kinda rock. I can't stand still kinda music. They get the drums, fiddle, guitar jammin. you can't help but want to dance. it reminds me of home a bit. a bit of blugrass just cause of the fiddle.
So I finally picked up my cammera this week. after three weeks of not even taking it out. I get such enjoyment and I think God does too. Like someone is noticing the cool creations He has put all over the earth. That is what compells me, to capture the beauty of the world and show it to others. A good photograph captures a glimsp of the beauty He has made. Well I am still alive and kickin. I will leave you with a new verse I found
(song of soloman 8:14) my version says---Joyfully the radiant bride turned to him, the one altogether lovely, the chief among ten thousand to her soul, and with unconcealed eagerness to begin her life of sweet companionship with Him, she answered, Make haste my beloved....
I am just learning let's not yearn so much for the future or read the word of what will happen in the future to forget to live it today. God calls us today, the here and the now. Maybe that doen't apply to you but I am just learing I have learned so much of what is to happen in the future or endtimes that I forget to let God penitrate my heart now. SO I am enjoying all that He is saying in the here and now. The commpanionship of a Bride & Bridegroom. Chao Beloved....... BE LOVED
First off I am tring to remember what I have shared and have not. or What I have writen in emails so if I repeat myself pease pardon me. pardon- forgive. Desculpa- I am sorry in Portugese.
I don't feel like I mesh and my pacientce is short somedays. But I know I am being stretched, and God is trying to teach me through this. But There is a deffinate diffrence in me and my reaction to the culture and the people here compaired to other places I have been. Which is good and bad. Good- because I see how excited my heart gets in terms of Latin America / Europe (for them to come to know the Lord). Bad- in the sence that The Lord calls us to take care of all and care for His sheep. And in this case by sheep I mean the people of this earth He has created and wants to see them not decived and come to kow Him and His salvation. (Read it Ezeikle 34- I know it is talking about Isreal but God was using it to speak to me in the here and now). So when I am in the village I see the people with Love and am ready to move in and work with them. But the poeple and kids that come in from the village are not on their best behavior away form their parents etc. But I know that the problem is with me and things that God is scraping off of me or showing me things in me that need to change.
I have to keep in mind that this culture is so diffrent they don't have Judeo Chirstian belifes or ethics. They don't know the Ten Commandments. As Heidi was speaking she was explaining they have grown up with the mentality or philosphy of -- "A goat tied to a post can have as much grass as it reach." So if it is in the goats reach then they are gonna eat it. And that seems to be how things go here, things can easily disipear easily. There are many opportunist. If I can get my hands on it then i can have it. Which is so diffrent to what Westerners have engrained in them from the begining. We act out of a sence of indiviualisim and they opperate in a community. And there is not a great attacment to things here. Why would you be attched whenyou don't have much and if a "goat can grase" things are temporary. That is a good thing to not be attched to earthly things but also that leads to the diffrences of how we treat things. As Westerners we are taught most of the time to take care of things so they last. But as I see things here, things are temporary so the care is not put in to perserving things at the same level. These things may seem trivial but really are some of our foudnations of how we live life and relate. I feel like I am in a PHD prgram of anthropoloy or socialogy. Lots to process!!! This blog is slowly becoming a place to process and journal. I am don't know if that is good or not. It may get embarassing for me since I don't opperate with that many filters. Hopefully I will not stick my foot in my mouth. But please grant me grace and know that life is a process.
I am slowly making some mozambquie friends. You may seem shocked but - keep in mind I have class and some other things on the schedulal which eat up time. And there are people that I talk with and try and form relationships daily but it feels like there is an adgenda on both sides. They may want to get something from me, or are trying to marry me or I am trying to learn portugese. It is just forced. So I have been helping with the horses here and the guy that works with them speaks fairly good english, so we chat. It seems like we are becoming freinds, and I am excited. Frindship can't be forced ya know, But He seems chill/ cool. HIs name is Edu. He likes to ask me questions. Todays was, Do I have a specail freind? (boyfreind or husband). and I say, No. Then as most here, He will continue to say, Why? And I follow with, I don't know. Today He said, You need to ask God why. - It cracks me up, and frustraights me all in the same breath. But I geuss I share that to say I hope I can have a true mozambquiecan freind here. I would love to have more, so we shall see. But my language is fair I can get around and get thigns done but to have a indepth conversation is a whole other level of portugese. And my Macuwa- is pitifal, bu tthey crack up when a white person speaks their language. Wheather i say it right or not it is sofunny to them.
If this sounds like complaining. please don't take it that way I am just telling things going on here, life is full of things to ponder. But it is not complaining. I am just trying to share my experinces here. I am not great at making things sound fluffy and wonderful or sugar coating. But if you know me than you should know that about me.
The people here int eh school are passionate for the Lord and I am learning and being spurred on by their example. And just how they approch God diffrently. They dont' put Him in a box. Or at least we are being challenged to take HIm out of that box. So there are times I have had these theories or thoughts from the Lord or thoughts about the Lord that help me understand Him. And some of the speakers here have hit on these thoughts and theiories exact on the dot. It is so nice to have conformation in those things and encourages me to walk in those ideas in confidence in the future. To know others have had these ideas or God has spoken to them about the same thing. And to walk in freedom in the Lord. And to not let satan have his thumb on me or oppress me or tell me lies. Christ has already faught that battle. We woud be handing abck land that has already been faught for and won, And handing it to the enemy free of charge. (it rediculaous)
Or even to let my own heart condem me. And that that is not acceptabel either. I am learning that God speaks to me in many ways and I seem to brush it off as though I don't know what I am talking about. As thought - I couldn't have understanding on this asue who am I. When really I am saying my weekness or lacking is prohibity God form working. That is redicualous. My weekness is not opstical for Him. But really God is speaking to me. And He speaks to us in the ways He knows we will unerstand He translates it to our heart lanuage and that maybe is why it is hard for me to see if it is me or Him, cause He speaks so well to my heart that I can't recognize it as forgien. But those times I do recognze it as something foreigen I always give him credit. (condeming heart 1 John3:19-22) I hope that makes sence those are some things I am pondering on or realizing things I belive that I didn't realize, and some of them are lies. I thank the Lord that He doesn't give up on us. I am a slow mover sometimes.
Does that make sence. I just assumed having the mind of an artist that I was wierd but I always assumed I am wrong in my thoughts but in learning from speakers and conversations with people in the day to day, I am learing tons of how God is speaking to me I just didn't give him enough credit that He was that good at communication. But at the same time how ammazing is the Lord that He communicates on such a great level, adn intamae level.
I am learning of new speakers and musiians. I am excited about some of the music, it speaks the cries of the heart to God. You can look up and get some of it if you like. I am LOVE music so I have to pass along the good things I have found. You may have heard of some of them but since there is a range of people reading this I will put a mix, and we can all move on from Sandy patty, eh. -Watchmen for the nations. -Jason Upton -Enter the Worship Circle -100 portraits -Water Deep, -Healing Gate ministry, -Hillsong -Brian Johnson - Kelly Warren -Johnathan Helser -JoAnn Mc Fatter - IHOP worship team -Brenton Brown -Georgian Bannoff ?
sites you can check out of other music - Morning star ( a church n N.C) and IHOP- Internation House of Prayer some cool stuff.
So this school is in a diffrent arena of chirstianity. I guess you classify it as Charasmatic. And therefore i am learning new sides of God. Being that I was raised in the evagelical prodstant side that didn't really speak much about the Holy Spirit. I am enjoying learning, and seeing God in a new light and watching HIm opperate out of the box I put HIm in. He is a great God. Man !!!
I am going to an outreach tonight. Where we go to a village and show the Jesus film, and speak and evangelize. It should be cool. And this band is here visiting that is amazing. Their name is Georgian Bannoff. I don't know how to spell it. I think they are partly from Belgum. They rock, like let's have a hoe down,kinda rock. I can't stand still kinda music. They get the drums, fiddle, guitar jammin. you can't help but want to dance. it reminds me of home a bit. a bit of blugrass just cause of the fiddle.
So I finally picked up my cammera this week. after three weeks of not even taking it out. I get such enjoyment and I think God does too. Like someone is noticing the cool creations He has put all over the earth. That is what compells me, to capture the beauty of the world and show it to others. A good photograph captures a glimsp of the beauty He has made. Well I am still alive and kickin. I will leave you with a new verse I found
(song of soloman 8:14) my version says---Joyfully the radiant bride turned to him, the one altogether lovely, the chief among ten thousand to her soul, and with unconcealed eagerness to begin her life of sweet companionship with Him, she answered, Make haste my beloved....
I am just learning let's not yearn so much for the future or read the word of what will happen in the future to forget to live it today. God calls us today, the here and the now. Maybe that doen't apply to you but I am just learing I have learned so much of what is to happen in the future or endtimes that I forget to let God penitrate my heart now. SO I am enjoying all that He is saying in the here and now. The commpanionship of a Bride & Bridegroom. Chao Beloved....... BE LOVED
Jul 3, 2007
Almost forgot. so there is to be a wedding here on 07-07-07. HEEEEEE. so excited. it is a long-termer here. and they are getting married on the beach and inviting the villages and everyone. just like the feast that Christ speaks of inviting the people on the streets. I am so pumped to see this acted out before my very eyes. and then there is the Call this weekend also. it is a wedding of remarrying the Lord after 40 years of rebellion that started in the 60's. Check it out and if you don't feel called to be a part I would ask you to pray please for it. and for the country. Please. we are need of repentance. Ask the Lord to speak to your heart about it. well I have to go. and if you can shoot a prayer for me I am taking the photos of the bride. love ya all. -B
I love being over sea's or maybe I love that my soul concern is reaching people.
I love being over sea's or maybe I love that my soul concern is reaching people.
well, I have been avoiding town it is such an effort to get here being a girl i need to find others to go along. and getting people to go along can be a challenge. they keep us busy. today was one of the few less packed days. But Yesterday i was able to hike through a few villages -and loved it. they are uncorrupted by the white people (cunnas) It was great to hang out with the people. Verses the village kids around the center that are very rough. So it was neat to see the way most of the people live. The Lord is still challenging me. Are you going to love me children my sheep are you going to show them truth. What they say here a lot is LOVE LOOKS LIKE SOMETHING. So that means hugging and hanging on a kid that has scabies. or is picking their nose and doesn't think twice about wiping it on you. Yeah this is missions. Missions is not always shoving the gospel in their face. you have to love them.
So i go on my first outreach this Thursday. where we preach and show the Jesus film and pray for a mass of people. so I hope it goes well. they mostly speak Macuwa - (a tribal language). I am not so good with it.
Thanks for your prayers. I am well and learning. yet still wanting to learn more and encounter God more. I pray he sucker punches me. I really want to get smacked upside the head. I guess I am feeling kinda dry at the moment. but that is life right ups and downs. well feel free to write and ask questions. other than that I am learning, watching, turning down marriage proposals by Mozabquicans) and over all good. Still asking God where he would have me serve. well I don't have anything profound to say. miss many of you. Hope all is well in you lives. and that God grants you an unquenchable thirst for HIM. talk to you soon. -B
So i go on my first outreach this Thursday. where we preach and show the Jesus film and pray for a mass of people. so I hope it goes well. they mostly speak Macuwa - (a tribal language). I am not so good with it.
Thanks for your prayers. I am well and learning. yet still wanting to learn more and encounter God more. I pray he sucker punches me. I really want to get smacked upside the head. I guess I am feeling kinda dry at the moment. but that is life right ups and downs. well feel free to write and ask questions. other than that I am learning, watching, turning down marriage proposals by Mozabquicans) and over all good. Still asking God where he would have me serve. well I don't have anything profound to say. miss many of you. Hope all is well in you lives. and that God grants you an unquenchable thirst for HIM. talk to you soon. -B
Hello again
SO I sit down to write and my thoughts are fleeing. I am sorry for the last few posts, My thoughts are mangled and I didn' t have time to do a spell check. So i hope you enjoyed de-coding my wiritng.
So things are good here. I am learning. Slowly. but my main thing is that God is showing me that I am loved and He wants to spend tiem with us. He walked with Adam in the cool of the eveing and jsut as husband and wife like to be in the presence of the other not nessicerily tlaking just enjoying the others presence. So it is with the Lord. I am hearing testemonies over and over about the things the Lord is doing or done in teh world. and it is over and over again, that it is not what teh people or missionary has done but the Lord is doing it. We need to seek teh Lord. He will show up and do the work. He will bring people to hiimself. I am relearning the loving character of the Lord.
Really there is so much to take in here that I don't know how to convey it all I hope to get better though.
We wached Braveheart the other night for fun. It hit me in so many new ways. I loved it. and How our freedom was purchased faught for, blood shead in battle. yet we hand it over to be oppressed again and again, tuck tail and run. and make all that death and blood shed be for nothing. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. man you should watch it again. So that is 1 tenth of what I felt in the movie. the signifigance was so powerful. We have God given rights, do not surrender, stand firm against the enemy. We are teh Lords any attack against us is illegal. We are private property - perchased by the Lord.
As for the prayer requests i had mentioned last time... DON"T worry just pray the Lord will protect and provide. And He has. We have prayed adn walked around our house and read scriptuere and reminded the spirits of who lives here. Children of the Lord most High. I coudl feel the shift. it is great. Stand confidnet. THe Lord didn't give us a spirit of fear. Know who you are in the Lord.
So do no worry. we are not to worry. I will remind you that the Lord is in control!!!! Or have we forgoten how mighty He is. I say that to a few people who I know can get stress out easily. so that is your push to remember truth.
I have not written much about the culture or the people - why to be flat honest it is the hardest part for me here. The culture here I am told is very diffrent that most of affrica due to the influence of westerners. BUt over all I am adjusting. The Lord gave me a scripture in Ezeaikiel 34 ? it is talking about the lost sheep and how they have been lead astray and hwo they need shelpard. I coudl hear the Lords voice pleading will you not take care of my sheep. will you not show them who I am and lead them out of deception. I coudl hear Him hurting for His creation to coem to Him to know Him. ( I know that it also talks about Isreal and things that will happen to them, but I kwno teh Lord was speaking and using it to speak to my heart about reaching out to his people.)
Well I will leave you with a song I have learned here. and absoloutly love. It shows the passion that I am sourounded by and learning from. Jesus is to be our bridegroom, remember....
Daughters of Jersuslem, tell me can you find him, I am lovesick, I am lovesick
Daughters of Jeruselem, tell me can you find him, I am lovesick, I am lovesick
All I want is to be near you, with you, where you are...
but do you hear the passion for the Lord. That is a realtionship, but religion. Religion is jsut rules you should do this ect... I want a realtionship. Man I am learing.... just to Love the lord. Love the Lord you God with all your heart. We can forget the simpelest things so easily can't we. ookay welll I wanted to write. talk to you soon. -B
So prayer requests, what ever the Lord lays on your heart.. and that the Lord would guide me to where He woudl have me next. or if there is a certain country I am to work with. But the Lord will show you, just ask.
So things are good here. I am learning. Slowly. but my main thing is that God is showing me that I am loved and He wants to spend tiem with us. He walked with Adam in the cool of the eveing and jsut as husband and wife like to be in the presence of the other not nessicerily tlaking just enjoying the others presence. So it is with the Lord. I am hearing testemonies over and over about the things the Lord is doing or done in teh world. and it is over and over again, that it is not what teh people or missionary has done but the Lord is doing it. We need to seek teh Lord. He will show up and do the work. He will bring people to hiimself. I am relearning the loving character of the Lord.
Really there is so much to take in here that I don't know how to convey it all I hope to get better though.
We wached Braveheart the other night for fun. It hit me in so many new ways. I loved it. and How our freedom was purchased faught for, blood shead in battle. yet we hand it over to be oppressed again and again, tuck tail and run. and make all that death and blood shed be for nothing. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. man you should watch it again. So that is 1 tenth of what I felt in the movie. the signifigance was so powerful. We have God given rights, do not surrender, stand firm against the enemy. We are teh Lords any attack against us is illegal. We are private property - perchased by the Lord.
As for the prayer requests i had mentioned last time... DON"T worry just pray the Lord will protect and provide. And He has. We have prayed adn walked around our house and read scriptuere and reminded the spirits of who lives here. Children of the Lord most High. I coudl feel the shift. it is great. Stand confidnet. THe Lord didn't give us a spirit of fear. Know who you are in the Lord.
So do no worry. we are not to worry. I will remind you that the Lord is in control!!!! Or have we forgoten how mighty He is. I say that to a few people who I know can get stress out easily. so that is your push to remember truth.
I have not written much about the culture or the people - why to be flat honest it is the hardest part for me here. The culture here I am told is very diffrent that most of affrica due to the influence of westerners. BUt over all I am adjusting. The Lord gave me a scripture in Ezeaikiel 34 ? it is talking about the lost sheep and how they have been lead astray and hwo they need shelpard. I coudl hear the Lords voice pleading will you not take care of my sheep. will you not show them who I am and lead them out of deception. I coudl hear Him hurting for His creation to coem to Him to know Him. ( I know that it also talks about Isreal and things that will happen to them, but I kwno teh Lord was speaking and using it to speak to my heart about reaching out to his people.)
Well I will leave you with a song I have learned here. and absoloutly love. It shows the passion that I am sourounded by and learning from. Jesus is to be our bridegroom, remember....
Daughters of Jersuslem, tell me can you find him, I am lovesick, I am lovesick
Daughters of Jeruselem, tell me can you find him, I am lovesick, I am lovesick
All I want is to be near you, with you, where you are...
but do you hear the passion for the Lord. That is a realtionship, but religion. Religion is jsut rules you should do this ect... I want a realtionship. Man I am learing.... just to Love the lord. Love the Lord you God with all your heart. We can forget the simpelest things so easily can't we. ookay welll I wanted to write. talk to you soon. -B
So prayer requests, what ever the Lord lays on your heart.. and that the Lord would guide me to where He woudl have me next. or if there is a certain country I am to work with. But the Lord will show you, just ask.
